I haven’t posted in a while because things have been difficult getting online access but I’ve saved up a bunch of good ideas. Things I have been working on have been making a model for a tiny home that I hope to build in a few years. The garden has been taunting me with ideas about what to plant and I keep thinking of Thomas Jefferson and Monticello with all of the experimental gardening and testing and growing of hybrids and such. Jefferson was an amazing driven man that couldn’t stop being a scientist and experimenting or finding new modern things. Cleaning has been my focus this past few weeks and so I have been sorting through my stuff and making plans to sell, donate, toss, or find a new use for. It may sound strange but I am planning on getting rid of some books I have in my collection and this is because I’ve read them and they are not just space savers for new books!
Moxie my kitty is doing wonderful and when I adopted her she was underweight and her back legs were lacking muscle so I am happy to report she has been gaining weight and her back legs are strong now. She will sometimes play fetch with me and because I let her outside to play she has started asking to go outside when she needs to potty. Leash training has been well enough but we haven’t been on a walk in a while. She had decided that 5am is the best time to wake me up.. yeah 5AM. But I am a morning person so this is not so bad and I get to watch her be crazy as she plays and plays and plays.
Anyway thanks so much for reading and enjoying a cup of coffee with me. I will write again really soon… oh have you heard about the crazy story about study on Autism this past week? Here is a neat picture of the patches in the brain they have found with that study.
I hate wasting my days and I often feel that I do because I have joint pain from arthritis that developed after I went through treatments for cancer. I also have anemia and I am overweight. I also have emotional pain of being completely god-smacked by medical appointments and bills, managing family time, working too hard for my body & mind to heal, and being afraid to ask for help when I am drowning in things I need to get done but cannot find the energy to get out of bed.
Recently I started work on a novel something that as a child, adolescent, and adult I have longed to start, slog through, and finish. This fills me with great joy but this like many other things will get overshadowed by depression or just pain that keeps me in bed. But I want to do this thing that fills me with joy and I am determined to find a way through just like I found a way through cancer.
Of course because it is December like many others I find myself thinking on what I want to do next year to make it amazing or just better than the year prior. Last year and throughout this year I have started writing letters to friends and family. Good old fashion pen and paper, envelope licking, stamp buying letters. It felt good, really good and it gave me something to do when I wasn’t feeling good and when I was feeling good. So I next year I am going to make the letter writing and novel writing something I work 2 days a week on.
Sunday and Mondays I will head down to the Library and write my letters and work on my novel. I will bring stationary, stamps, and envelopes for anyone who wants to join me.
Hillsboro Main Library – First level
2850 NE Brookwood Parkway
Hillsboro, OR 97124
Monday Afternoon unless I have a doctor appointment.
Forest Grove City Library
2114 Pacific Avenue
Forest Grove, OR 97116
More Love Letters
This is from the first page of More Love Letters.
“The world doesn’t need another website. It doesn’t need another app or a network.
What it needs is really basic. Simple. Bare-boned.& often forgotten in the race to get followers, likes & status.
LOVE. Pure, old-fashioned, never goes out of style Love. Ridiculous, oozing, cannot pack this thang into 140-characters kind of love. Fearless, bold, unstoppable love.
And that’s where we come in… We’re going to tell you that we leave love letters all over the world for others to be blessed by. We’re going to ask you to write letters for Love Letter Bundlesfor people you’ll probably never meet. We’re going to invite you to nominate someone you know for a Love Letter Bundle. You are going to think we are a bit crazy. A tad loopy… But let’s be honest, you’ve been looking for a website that leaks love all this time.
Fair warning, we could really care less about love letters.
We’re only interested in you. The cracked parts of your own story & how you can use them to lift someone else. It’s about how each of us can morph our lives into love letters… lamps… lanterns… to light the paths of others who needs kindness and love today.
It’s official. Now, more than ever, the world needs more love letters. So get involved. Check out the current letter requests. Join our subscriber list to never miss a beat.
Your cursive means the world to us.”
This last Wednesday I was at a friends house and things got a bit crazy and in that craziness Becky from Hillsboro was created. So she is going to be part of a new story I am going to write. You will likely see a few short stories about Becky as I get to know her so please keep an eye out for those.
Things a changing in my life. I am getting ready for a move to Forest Grove, OR and it will be the first time I will be living on my own in a real way since I originally lived in Ashland, OR.
My focus on writing has been off because well I haven’t been taking care of things for a long time so I have needed to play catch up with many items and that has put writing on the back burner. But as in my Tumblr post I will be participating in the novel writing month and I am just a bit scared of that challenge but I know it will be fun. Anyway wish me luck on moving and getting in to my new place and I will talk with everyone later.
I have never written a love letter before today but I was inspired today I guess by the light in the air. Often when I have nothing to do while I am waiting on something I have to do I will write a letter to a friend or family. Sometimes I send them sometimes they sit unsent for months and get to feel dumb and guity. Anyway I have wanted to write a love letter and just leave it for someone to find and enjoy.
This site is my inspiration:
So today I walked into Barnes & Noble purchased some stationary and wrote a letter put it in an envelope stating please read me and walked away leaving it on the table. It felt really good and I am glad I finally wrote a love letter and now I want to write more.
I hope everyone enjoyed today!
I have been going dark a bit lately and that is so sad because I like candle light. I use that term because of the kids song “this little light of mine”. Last week was mostly me sorting through paperwork but I am still not done. The common thought is that paperwork is difficult and they are all right and it seems like a reasonable notion that it is easy but crunching through research and making phone calls is a painful slog.
I spent time trying to get focus, sleeping, and putting the work into getting stress from putting me into an early grave…. I have to confess I have had some really dark thoughts and I just really had a bad first week of disability. It may have only been bad because of the house I was staying was just full of stress besides my own woes. This week however I took some time away from the house where I am living to get some clear thoughts flowing again. When I came back the manic panic feeling of the house had reduced in size and I was able to breath. Yesterday and today I was able to hang out with friends, get phone calls made and relax a bit. I wish I had a better article to write for everyone because I miss writing about space, crazy garden projects, or building a small tiny home. Those articles are still to come and I am hoping that everyone will enjoy these update articles too.
Here is a “selfy” I took today while I hung out with the free wifi at Safeway/Starbucks to let everyone know I haven’t forgotten to smile and that I am still alive.
There are a bunch of phrases that talk about your dreams that in my soft brain take me a moment or two for understanding.
“follow your dream”, “live your dream”, “find your dream” ect. but the problem I have is that my actual dreams are strange and I don’t think I would want to live them. What the phrases are referencing are daydreams the ideas about how you want to live. When you say that your dream is to ________ you are talking about an idealized pursuit. I wish we used better terms than “dream” because in my mind I always think of the wispy adventures you have in your head while you are asleep.
My ideal pursuits are many but my main focus is to keep writing and to tell stories.