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Sunny Thursday

Hey so I have not been posting or writing because I have been looking for a new job and working through my current one like I am on eggshells.  I have been gardening… like everyday and it’s been really fun.  Anyway the is a link to an amazing project that I have thought this should be our future for years.  It’s called Solar Roadways and it seems to be focused on everything I like… the future, solar energy, recycling, modular, sustainable, nerdy science stuff, and TRON!  

Please take a bit of time and look through the site and drool if you want or jump up and down or giggle maniacally … not that I did any of those things… Please enjoy.


Not a Squirrel


This article points out that the problem is not as the common joke of “ooh look a shiny thing or ooh squirrel”  I am very skill at working with my mind as it tries to pull itself from the task at hand but it’s not easy.  I am blessed that I can do my work so well but it’s not easy infact I am having to look for a new position because it’s been harder lately to keep that focus.  

Reposting from another site and it was a very good read so I wanted to share it here.  I wish I had written it because it is clear and precise with regard to the reality of living with my own ADD. Thank you all for reading.   

ADHD is about having broken filters on your perception. 

Normal people have a sort of mental secretary that takes the 99% of irrelevant crap that crosses their mind, and simply deletes it before they become consciously aware of it. As such, their mental workspace is like a huge clean whiteboard, ready to hold and organize useful information. 

ADHD people… have no such luxury. Every single thing that comes in the front door gets written directly on the whiteboard in bold, underlined red letters, no matter what it is, and no matter what has to be erased in order for it to fit. 

As such, if we’re in the middle of some particularly important mental task, and our eye should happen to light upon… a doorknob, for instance, it’s like someone burst into the room, clad in pink feathers and heralded by trumpets, screaming HEY LOOK EVERYONE, IT’S A DOORKNOB! LOOK AT IT! LOOK! IT OPENS THE DOOR IF YOU TURN IT! ISN’T THAT NEAT? I WONDER HOW THAT ACTUALLY WORKS DO YOU SUPPOSE THERE’S A CAM OR WHAT? MAYBE ITS SOME KIND OF SPRING WINCH AFFAIR ALTHOUGH THAT SEEMS KIND OF UNWORKABLE. 

It’s like living in a soft rain of post-it notes. 

This happens every single waking moment, and we have to manually examine each thought, check for relevance, and try desperately to remember what the thing was we were thinking before it came along, if not. Most often we forget, and if we aren’t caught up in the intricacies of doorknob engineering, we cast wildly about for context, trying to guess what the hell we were up to from the clues available. 

On the other hand, we’re extremely good at working out the context of random remarks, as we’re effectively doing that all the time anyway. 

We rely heavily on routine, and 90% of the time get by on autopilot. You can’t get distracted from a sufficiently ingrained habit, no matter what useless crap is going on inside your head… unless someone goes and actually disrupts your routine. I’ve actually been distracted out of taking my lunch to work, on several occasions, by my wife reminding me to take my lunch to work. What the? Who? Oh, yeah, will do. Where was I? um… briefcase! Got it. Now keys.. okay, see you honey! 

Also, there’s a diminishing-returns thing going on when trying to concentrate on what you might call a non-interactive task. Entering a big block of numbers into a spreadsheet, for instance. Keeping focused on the task takes exponentially more effort each minute, for less and less result. If you’ve ever held a brick out at arm’s length for an extended period, you’ll know the feeling. That’s why the internet, for instance, is like crack to us – it’s a non-stop influx of constantly-new things, so we can flick from one to the next after only seconds. Its better/worse than pistachios. 

The exception to this is a thing we get called hyper focus. Occasionally, when something just clicks with us, we can get ridiculously deeply drawn into it, and NOTHING can distract us. We’ve locked our metaphorical office door, and we’re not coming out for anything short of a tornado. 

Medication takes the edge off. It reduces the input, it tones down the fluster, it makes it easier to ignore trivial stuff, and it increases the maximum focus-time. Imagine steadicam for your skull. It also happens to make my vision go a little weird and loomy occasionally, and can reduce appetite a bit. 

Hope this helps and please do share this so that more people can learn what its really like to have ADHD.

Making $8000 for 5min vs $15 for 45min what would you do?


Okay there are many facts and opinions in this video and they cross over many times but the conversation is a good. The big problem I face is how to budget my health with 2 cancers that while they are in remission are still part of my life.
I am obese not because I don’t like healthy food or can’t cook. It started in highschool stressed and terrified of dealing with the outside world that I shut myself up in my room and ate comfort food. That continued until it was my normal and I was a very active person up until highschool started for me. The bullying took so much out of me that I just had a hard time enjoying learning. This developed a trend in my life of going out in the world to work or school then coming home and eating comfort food. I became obese and it was preventable but I lacked the knowledge to ask for help and to know what the problem was. The cost to solve that now is medical procedures and my cancers were not caused by my obesity they were caused by my body breaking down due to the lack of support I had to take care of myself. My ‘self’ was crying for help and I did not know how to solve it before it became a problem because our idea with health care did not know how to handle the fact that I was Unhappy. I spent years unhappy and when you are unhappy you fill your body up with advertized happy solution that are not focused on health but increasing money in someone elses pocket. Our quick solutions are not healthy but they could be if we were taught and could make them a desire, trend, and social benefit.
Sigh I guess this is what I am saying I don’t like being sick all the time and I want supportive health care.

Garden Dreams


Yup it’s the last week in January and all I can think about having a real garden to plant in this year.  We are going to have drought conditions in most places and strange wildfires in California and Oregon currently.  There are other things trying to distract me like the Syrian conflict, shootings in the U.S., the Winter Olympics but with all of the problems out there I just want to grow something.  

I was asking my friend about her gardening plans and she let me know about another friend who was looking to split some seeds and order through the same company.  She also said that another person was wanting to do a Start exchange.  So of course I went crazy and created a spreadsheet in about an hour and copied and pasted planting and seeds for the right month and dreaming up this great network.

After taking a few bits to the grinding stone with the input of some folks my spreadsheet was done.  I think my crazy was a bit too much but I am just so excited about having a garden this year and not just pots.  My hope is that I can just get a few things to grow and that I can harvest a 3rd of what I can put in the ground.  

Good luck everyone and never let anyone tamp down your excited feelings about gardening if you do it will never grow. 

Home Sick with Migraine


I am home today with a migraine and I am angry about that because I have work that needed to be done at work today. Yesterday I was losing my focus and my head began to spin in the afternoon and I worked hard at keeping on task but it was hard.  This morning I began getting ready and my head was just cooperating demanding there be no light and each step of making breakfast was frot with forgotten steps.  I realized I would not be able to safe to drive and when I got to work I would be fighting for focus.  So it was calling in to the absentee line for me to make sure I could take care of my pained brain. 

Work work work


I seem to do as much work away from my job as I do when I am at home.  This a common story told but like is about working to make it work.  Anyway tomorrow I return to work after being off for my knee surgery to repair my torn meniscus.  Sadly I am up because my brain will not turn the toggle switch to off. So I’ve gotten back up and did some update to the pages on my blog and I hope you will check them out.  The plan is to keep improving my blog site here and I am planning on creating a recipe page for cool things I have tried or am planning on trying.  Other plans include a section page dedicated to fun projects I am working on like building a beehive and growing some fun stuff in my garden space.

I am going to try and get back to bed now that I have gotten some ideas out and on the page of my blog.  Thanks for putting up with my midnight musings.

The move


So after a few months living like I was camping and while that would normally be something fun it was very difficult.  I am undergoing some new treatments and they are doing well for me.  

I am going to be doing some research to find out why liquid vitamins seems to work better in my system than just a pill.  When I am done I will post some science stuff again.

I will be going back to work and I am very fortunate to have a job I like.  My new place is wonderful so I will feel safe going home and safe at work once again.  

Be well and love often!

Unleash the Flippant


I took my fish out of hiding to day because he was just feeling to sad and alone in the bag he was in.  I do not mean that he was just floating around in a bag what I mean is that his tank was in a bag that I took him home in from work.  Flippant was previously named Sushi and Mr. Swimmy but my friend Rivikah said that was silly and name him Flippant.  I am okay with this because he is rather flippant.  Anyway I did have Flippant at work for a long time but then I got asked to bring him home.  It made me sad but apparently having a fish at work is against the rules.  He is a beta fish and just a beautiful shade of blue and shimmers red when he swims but he never looks purple.  Flippant is a great fish and totally a helper when it comes to writing and staying focused at my desk.  

So hooray for Flippant the fish a writer companion if there ever was one.  The Doctor never had a fish this useful… but then again the Doctor is not a writer.  Eh oh well I am so I guess that comparison is not great but the point is Flippant is a great fish.

sanity maintenance device

So whenever I have a bad day or I just need a bit of fun at work I blow bubbles.  Yes bubbles because they are awesome and keeping a bottle of bubbles on my desk helps me just be a happy person.  I recommend this to everyone or if not this something for you that is your private fun that does not involve you losing your job!  That past part is important because it is all well and good to have fun but not when you lose your job over it.  Some places would not allow such a fun endeavor of sanity maintenance but every productive work environment should include something to manage employee fun levels. 
Play is an important part of productivity because of the low cost way of adding energy levels to your day but it can always be taken to far so as always moderation is the key.  But what does that mean???  For an person with ADHD or Autism this usually means they need to dual task almost all part of their lives to keep on task to anything.  So I recommend finding something that can keep you happy at work and to talk with your direct manager or supervisor to make sure your sanity maintenance device is acceptable. 

Biking to work


I am riding my bike to work this morning and I am excited but worried.  I worry about my energy level and also needing to get around quickly. But I need to make this change of traveling more by my own 2 feet so that I can be in shape to do the 5K.  Anyway I will post later with an update on how my biking has gone.