Tag Archives: Stress

Garden Dreams


Yup it’s the last week in January and all I can think about having a real garden to plant in this year.  We are going to have drought conditions in most places and strange wildfires in California and Oregon currently.  There are other things trying to distract me like the Syrian conflict, shootings in the U.S., the Winter Olympics but with all of the problems out there I just want to grow something.  

I was asking my friend about her gardening plans and she let me know about another friend who was looking to split some seeds and order through the same company.  She also said that another person was wanting to do a Start exchange.  So of course I went crazy and created a spreadsheet in about an hour and copied and pasted planting and seeds for the right month and dreaming up this great network.

After taking a few bits to the grinding stone with the input of some folks my spreadsheet was done.  I think my crazy was a bit too much but I am just so excited about having a garden this year and not just pots.  My hope is that I can just get a few things to grow and that I can harvest a 3rd of what I can put in the ground.  

Good luck everyone and never let anyone tamp down your excited feelings about gardening if you do it will never grow. 

Laundry Day


That means so many things have to happen it is just amazing it gets done at all for anyone. For me what I am wish is that I could find a laundromat that had wifi and coffee that wasn’t out of a vending machine.

So currently I live in a basement where there is a semi working washer that I first wash and have to spin separately (grumble grumble) no dryer. The dryer is upstairs out the door onto a back porch that is filthy with dirt, dog hair, growing things and I hate it. Image

Each time I go out there I feel dirtier and yet that is where the dry is that I have to drag my wet clothing to. Often time there is leftover clothing in the dryer and for some reason on basket so I have to find one to put the clothes in from previous person and then I can check the lint trap and start my laundry. ImagePAIN, such a pain because of my knee troubles that cause me to lose breath with pain often while walking across the floor let alone stairs of which there are 3 sets repeatedly. So this is a painful process to me on laundry day while I live here and a large reason why I am looking for a place on ground floor.

Thankfully I do not have to pound out my laundry by hand on rocks.

Wish me luck and everyone else on “Laundry Day”


Week 1 & Week 2


I have been going dark a bit lately and that is so sad because I like candle light. I use that term because of the kids song “this little light of mine”. Last week was mostly me sorting through paperwork but I am still not done. The common thought is that paperwork is difficult and they are all right and it seems like a reasonable notion that it is easy but crunching through research and making phone calls is a painful slog.

I spent time trying to get focus, sleeping, and putting the work into getting stress from putting me into an early grave…. I have to confess I have had some really dark thoughts and I just really had a bad first week of disability. It may have only been bad because of the house I was staying was just full of stress besides my own woes. This week however I took some time away from the house where I am living to get some clear thoughts flowing again. When I came back the manic panic feeling of the house had reduced in size and I was able to breath. Yesterday and today I was able to hang out with friends, get phone calls made and relax a bit. I wish I had a better article to write for everyone because I miss writing about space, crazy garden projects, or building a small tiny home. Those articles are still to come and I am hoping that everyone will enjoy these update articles too.  

Here is a “selfy” I took today while I hung out with the free wifi at Safeway/Starbucks to let everyone know I haven’t forgotten to smile and that I am still alive. 


Moving stress


Everyone knows how hard it is to move everything you own and go to a new place to live but it is what we do from time to time.  On Sunday I worked myself so hard cleaning up the last bit of my stuff for moving and I was then not able to move or get out of bed on Monday.  Thank goodness I wasn’t needed at work that day but I am behind in moving and that is a problem. Often when you are moving problems come up and it is difficult getting things settled because your world in in boxes.  

This post is mostly to express how stressed I am while doing this move and I will post more details later. For now I have to get on the road to take care of getting to a doctors appointment. Good luck everyone and I will write more again soon. 

Off and On


I am extremely proud of myself for all of this work that I have been doing and thankful for the support I have gotten.  Leaving my blog unattended made me feel similar to leaving your animal out in the rain I hope everyone will forgive me but I needed the time to focus. Image

I have thought of some great posts that I want to put together for my page here so I will be working on that.  As you can see I am doing my next 5K in Medford, OR with family.

Starting on Sunday I was able to get a mile back into my daily walking and that makes me feel good.  I feel horrible because due to illness I was not able to keep up with my training and that has made everything worse.  



But I am back and I going to be working on making sure I share stories about my progress and events going on around this place called earth that I think are fun.